Archive | August, 2013

As a Mother

30 Aug

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Tonight is definitely a Kenny G, glass of wine and be by myself night. I am sure many mothers around the country can relate. It is the end of the second week of school, kids are coming home sick and all of them are in desperate need of a nap. And, lets get real, so are the moms.

Nothing is “wrong” per se. Nikkos really seems to like school and is making friends. His teacher SAYS he isn’t having problems being bossy which is good. He talks to much, but always has a smile on his face. That is what she told us anyway. He has had the stomach bug, but it was a 12 hour bug that has managed to avoid the rest of us (for now). Nothing has gone catastrophically wrong.

So why am I so painfully exhausted? Spent. Done. Over it. Tiiiirrreedddd.

Who knew worrying about kids was just as exhausting as sheltering them? And I have…well…the rest of my life to worry about him. Is he making friends? Are they good kids? Smart kids? Is he doing the right thing? Is he raising his hand? Is he being respectful? Am I always going to feel this emotionally drained? Like, as in the rest of my life??? Because if I am then I may as well be proactive and buy some stock in my favorite brand of wine because I am going to end up being their best customer.

I know, I know. Worrying solves nothing. Blah blah blah. If I hear one more person tell me to stop worrying then I may go off the deep end. It’s not that easy. If I could just STOP worrying I wouldn’t be sitting here with a half empty (half full) glass of wine waiting for the sleepy affect to set in.

I miss my babies being babies. I regret not spending every waking moment of every day doting on them and looking at the chubby creases in their legs and admiring their tiny little fingers.

I need to learn coping skills, but for tonight this glass of Merlot and some Kenny G will just have to do the trick.

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Shel Gets It Right Every Time

26 Aug

Shel Gets It Right Every Time

To My Son On His First Day Of School

22 Aug

Nikkos,

Today you have graduated into the world and are growing up right before my eyes. I remember the day you were born your daddy and I were talking about how we had five whole years to get to know you and enjoy you before you entered into the world of school. What we didn’t know is that five years wasn’t even close to enough! You have blossomed into such an amazing boy with a great love for learning. Please keep that love for learning. It will take you far.

We want you to know that you light up any room you walk into and can make friends wherever you go. We want to remember that your baby sister cried the night before you started kindergarten and you gave her a big hug and told her everything was going to be alright. Please never lose that compassion for others.

On your first day of kindergarten you went through three outfits before you found the perfect one and boy did you look so handsome today. As you lined up outside I went to give you one last hug, but you were FAR too cool to hug me back and I understand that. You were trying to be such a big boy and I had to remind myself that you still wear Scooby Doo pajamas to bed, still call me “Mommy” and still enjoy bedtime stories.

You will laugh at me and call me silly when I tell you that Daddy and I cried all the way to the car and tried to crack jokes just so we wouldn’t keep crying. You will also laugh when I tell you that Daddy opened your door to the car out of habit and got such a look of sadness when he realized he didn’t need to open the door.

All we did the rest of the day is countdown until we could see you again. Daddy paced back and forth in the living room and tried to stay strong, but the reality is that, in a day, our family dynamic had changed forever.

Daddy was convinced that we were going to get to the school way too early in the afternoon, but when we got there we saw many other parents with that same sad, empty look on their faces as they paced back and forth waiting for their own kids to get out of school.

When you walked out the door it took all of my restraint to not run up to you and give you the biggest hug. I was so proud that you listened to your teacher and lined up against the wall even though you saw me. You were smiling from ear to ear just like I was! She asked if any kids saw their “grownups” and you were the first person to say that you saw yours.

It seemed like you aged a year in those few hours.

You told me that you could get used to this kindergarten thing and I was so happy to hear that you had a good time.

This is the beginning of letting my baby go. I know you will make us proud this year and for the twelve that follow. You are such a bright little boy (BIG boy). We love you so much!

Love,

Mommy and Daddy

To My Son’s Teacher On His First Day

20 Aug

Please take care of my pride and joy

Please understand that he has been the center of my world for over five years

And is every bit the reason I have never given up

Please appreciate his dimples

And slate blue eyes

And smile that lights up my heart

Please be patient when he is at his worst

And stand behind him when he thrives

Please be there for him when he is struggling

But make sure he makes his own decisions when he is able to

Please love him like your own

And be firm with him when he gets out of line

Please encourage him to try new things

And to never stop learning

Please know that a part of me will be missing

When I don’t hear his witty comments throughout the day

Please know that my baby is growing up

And it’s now up to the both of us to get him through it together

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Our First Vendor Experience

20 Aug

This past weekend we had our very first vendor experience for our Etsy business. I can definitely say that it was an experience I won’t soon forget. It was exhausting, but I am happy to have the first one under my belt and am excited for the future of our business.

I was most nervous about the setup of our booth. We had done the setup in our garage so we knew what to expect, but I was nervous that everyone would be stairing at us because we weren’t typical vendors.

We got to the venue and were the first vendors there (no surprise there). The frustrating thing is that there was a bunch of stuff for the sale in our vendor space and the rest of them were empty. So, we awkwardly stood there for about twenty minutes waiting for them to clear out our space. Eventually we decided to just bring all of our stuff inside and set it right next to our space. They finally got the hint and said “Oh, do you need this spot?” No…our business name is just there for the heck of it….

It only took us about 15 or 20 minutes to get the booth set up. I was worried it would take longer, but we move pretty fast. People WERE staring and I just tried to ignore it and tell myself that they were just curious about our products. Our booth definitely stood out from the rest and I am really happy with how it looked in the end.

We had to get there at 12:30 for setup, but customers weren’t even supposed to start shopping until four. All of the vendors were kind of confused as to why we had to be there so early. The worst part of the entire weekend was waiting awkwardly sitting there incredibly bored until the event started. We were lucky in that the vendors around us were all really nice. It felt like the first day of school where everyone sits there in silence for a while, but when people start talking the awkwardness goes away.

We got a LOT of compliments on how good our booth looked which really boosted my confidence. It was fun to see everyone so excited about our products.

Sales that first day were SLOOOWWW. I tried to not get discouraged about it. I was so happy to get home that night.

The second day was a full day event. I was tired, but excited to see if sales would pick up and they did! It is really fun to see that other people liked what we were selling. It is one thing to have a yard sale, but it is a whole different ballgame when you are selling something that you designed and produced yourself. Lucky for us, I overheard plenty of people telling each other how fun and cool the lights were.

Sales were good, but I was really, really homesick. I am not used to being away from my kids for so long. To be honest, I wasn’t really looking forward to coming back for a third or forth day.

Day three was really hard. Ariahna cried when I left (Which she NEVER does). Luckily I have an amazing husband who surprised me and brought the kids to the event for a bit. He manned the booth while I took the kids around to shop. He is the BEST business partner on the planet. The third day was not as busy as I would have liked, but the time passed pretty quickly.

The last day of the sale was BUSY! Like, line out the door busy. We sold some more lights and got a ton of great feedback. We nearly ran out of business cards! Packing up took maybe 15 minutes. We were done before any other vendors. I wanted to get home to see my babies!

Once we got home we sat on the couch the rest of the day and watched tv. It felt soooo good to relax. Usually one of us gets antsy and starts working, but neither of us had any desire to work. We didn’t even unload the car from the event.

We learned so much at this event and have some new ideas for future events. It was well worth the stress, time and money. We are very excited to see what the future holds for Miss Eloise!

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